Apr 30, 2007

Gardenin' with W

C: Don't cut the worms in half.
W: Oh don't worry. A thin film will form around the exposed area and mitosis will occur, causing the worm to completely regenerate.
C: Yeah... well, just don't cut the worms in half.


W: Those tomatoes look like they're dying.
C: I reckon they just need some water and they'll be fine.
W: Did you know there are two different types of Root Systems: fibrous and taproot; the first is where....

I swear all that boy reads is his Science Book, and all he watches besides Animal Planet, Discovery, and PBS Nature shows is Spongebob and probably that only because he likes marine biology.


When I was very little I had a kind of eczema that affected my fingers, made them constantly itch, raw, sting. The time it was worse I had to go to the Doctor and my right hand was bound up in white.

I think I remember it not so much because it hurt, but because I was very important then.

Apr 26, 2007

A half truth

One of these is true -

1) Today I woke up without having the thought "more sleep", opened the bright curtains for sunlight, then looked for awhile at someone in the mirror and thought she is beautiful
2) This dark and rainy morning I woke and stumbled out of bed to gaze in a mirror at tired eyes and a speechless face surrounded by defiant black curls that had somehow worked themselves into a real 'fro and I thought well somehow she is beautiful anyway


Perhaps a year before we moved and found a teacher, my mother's hands first guided mine on little keys, teaching me the simple songs she knew.


A long time ago, my five year old hands stole into those of Jesus and he has not let me go yet.

Apr 25, 2007

valse romantique

It strides around my head today, the opening notes repeating endlessly mmm da dah, mmm da dah. It is memorised, I am even picking up the picking up of playing from a random point within a phrase; it is almost printed on my mind, my fingers typing it out all Night, left hand mmm da dah, mmm da dah, right hand finally interskipping wistfully m-mm-mah, and what it means is you are never going to sleep never ever.
I am worried about performing wearing shoes. The last time I played with shoes on was I don't know when, and I could slip them off but would it be frowned upon?

It rained most of the night and melted into the freshest morning. It smells simple and feels right. Missy misses Miss Annie and stands by the old Barn. I'll take her an apple and cheer and then it's back to the Piano; I think I've been seized.

Apr 23, 2007

Comedies, tragedy and novel drama

Once I was talking with a friend, a girl who wrote stories. I never had a talent for writing fiction; she did and some she would ask me to read. I was delighted to. It was a new one we were discussing, one in the works, and we mulled over an ending. And somewhere in our talk, she told me what it was that gave her this idea. She told me what it was that brought forth a story.

She said, "This is going to sound weird... but I had a
dusty golden yellow feeling."

For a moment it gave me pause, then a smile, the rarest kind of smile when you know that in the World there is at least one other who really knows; and is quite alright with sounding weird; and I knew that though my aureate feeling does not express in words necessarily as hers does, it is a sorta Fairytale, and if there is an ending it will certainly be all right.

Does that make sense?

We agreed that feeling calm is a honey color and dreaming is deep and blue. Worn gold sepia was friendship. But Love neither of us could describe. Love is so many different colours.

Your questions

1. How tall are you barefoot?

There is assumed here that I am ever in a non-barefoot state. The assumption is most false. But I am very tall for being only 5 years old.

2. Have you ever smoked heroin?

Never - kids back old Home smoked reefer, we knew.

3. Do you own a gun?

They're around.

4. Rehab?

I am addicted only to a few things, none of which I wish to be rid of.

5. Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents"?

I am apprehensive enough with half of my own parents.

6. What do you think of hot dogs?

They remind me of sweaty ballpark days and the smell of barbecue smoke drifting down the concourses and the sun oppressive and your team a'winnin and your big brother buying soda and hot dogs, even though if
you was me, you could never think of being hungry there.

7. What's your favorite Christmas song?

My favorite is when of an evening in any season, I find in my white music book "chestnuts roasting on an open Fire", and my Dad, with all his opposition to Xmas, wanders over and sings the whole thing standing behind my shoulder.

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?

First the Sunshine, fog, the Rain, or the dew... and then my Tea - what kind depends mostly on my state of heart.

9. Do you do push-ups?

I have too much energy to exercise, and just not enough energy to exercise.

10. Have you ever done ecstasy?

Saints to Windows run... and stuff.

11. Are you a vegetarian?

When hell freezes over.

12. Do you like painkillers?

Do you think they would help?

13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?

I can't help it if I'm the Cutest.

14. Do you own a knife?

They're around.

15. Do you have A.D.D.?

Dreaming and Distracted are my middle na

16. Date of Birth?

A Sunny day in the winter of February, a long time ago.

17. Top 3 thoughts at this exact moment:

1) Poison ivy is torturous but I should be used to it by now but I'm not

2) Dad's flying somewhere I didn't find out where
3) Debussy debussy debussy debussy debussy

18. Name the last 3 things you have bought:

1) Really

2) can't
3) remember

19. Name five drinks you regularly drink:

Tea, water, milk, raindrops and remembrance

20. What time did you wake up?

I haven't just yet.

21. Current hair?

A humorous impossibility.

22. Current worry?

A faraway friend and wondering whether it is her carelessness that hurts us or mine.

23. Current hate?

Selfishness, injustice, and utter disregard for human life.

24. Favorite place to be?


25. Least favorite place to be?


26. Where would you like to go?

A farplace.

27. Do you own slippers?

My barefoot-rank is better. ED

28. Where do you think you'll be in 10 yrs?

I don't know anymore. I can see no further than to my Window, and even between that and I there is an uncertain maze.

29. Do you burn or tan?

Never get burned, and don't really tan... only get tan-ner.

30. Last thing you ate?

I really cannot remember.

31. Would you be a pirate?

I am already a rather good Appropriateer.

32. Last time you had an alcoholic drink?

Tankards scooped in Pearl... please refer to questionne 10.

33. What songs do you sing in the shower?

The songs I sing.

34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a kid?

Bugs under the covers - sometimes I slept on top of the Quilt -

35. What's in your pockets right now?

I've got one hand in my Pocket, and the other is playin' a Piano
(and everything's gonna be fine fine fine.)
Alanis Morissette

36. Last thing that made you laugh?

Crazy Max agitatedly barking at his reflection in the window.

37. Best bed sheets you had as a child?

Whatever ones were creepy bug-free and on my new-to-me bed in our brand new Daddy built two-window bedroom.

38. Worst injury you've ever had?

It hurt the most when my heart was angry.

39. How do you stand on movies?

I'm not allowed to do that anymore.

40. How many TVs do you have in your house?

2 and whew, it's a good thing you didn't ask how many

41. Who is your best friend?

The hills and the roads less traveled; an oak, a river, the rain and a thunderous voice; a Spinet, and a Dog as spare as myself.

42. Who is your love (latest victim)?

I didn't know I was victimizing any one - I just stalk them; OK, and I read Preston Wilson's diary.

43. Does someone have a crush on you?

Heavens, I hope not.

45. What is your favorite book?

That's like choosing between the color red, ice cream and baseball. That's like trying to sneak the Sun past the Rooster.

46. What is your favorite candy?

just small peanut butter flavored Kisses.

47. What songs do you want played at your wedding?

I am doubting the likelihood of my ever getting married.

48. What songs do you want played at your funeral?

I don't like to think about Funerals, not even mine.

49. What were you doing 12 AM last night?

Dreaming, I think peacefully.

50. Do you love the pain a tattoo brings?

I love no one's pain and don't like ending this post on this note.

I need one more Question.


Apr 19, 2007

A curiosity

You would think in all the time we've been cozy in
our passion for percentages and
serenely viewing these worn wheels
driving round, you would think
we would by now have found the time
to find the antidote
to that curious human propensity for
completely missing the point.


Apr 18, 2007

It's really obvious

that this photo has no Point.

We've run into a small obstacle

Olivia: "I'm really thinking I'm going to start a book club."

Christina: "Made up of?"

Olivia: "Well, me... and you...."

Christina: "But you don't like any of the books I read."


Olivia: "That's true."

Apr 13, 2007

At the moment

Olivia is playing Greensleeves on guitar in the next room, and I hum along.

Apr 11, 2007

Unremembered penance

Today I took up my Cross with full intention of sufferance complete - then, I leaned it for only a moment against my Spinet and positively forgot my Penitence.

Apr 6, 2007

A smile for tonight

Right now next to me is a deep, white cereal bowl and in that cereal bowl is a preposterously large amount of ice cream, whipped cream, bananas, caramel and pecans and I'm sorry, but I'm going to eat the whole thing.

Then I will read and sleep in my warm blanket, warm room, warm house. And tomorrow I shall achieve, conquer, continue.

Sweet dreams to everyone.

Apr 4, 2007


Last night I dreamt that for the first time in years my Dad called me Tina, and that has stayed with me all day.

Apr 2, 2007

While I was away...

... the lilacs bloomed.


facial lotion
wallpaper glue
- A partial list of Flash's choice diet.