Haven't lately been able to shake what follows me through the day, and wakes me up at night, and never wants me to eat and makes me act all funny. Something is bothering me and I don't know what it is. Maybe it is being immured in walls, too too cold to venture out, maybe it is having too much to do and never ever finishing, maybe it is the layers and layers of grey - maybe it is something else.
But it is something.
I want to learn to live with this heart.
I want to leave the cold behind.