secret:

i have a certain phone number memorized. once upon a time the person on the other end of the line and i were close friends. and then things happened and we didn't talk anymore. one day, after a long time i called it and i found that the other phone had been disconnected.

so those 10 digits that i know by heart can do absolutely no good now.

but at least once every week i still dial them, just in case.

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there's something about holding on.